なにしよっかなあ THIS BORES ME !!

I was thinking about you while the young man was talking about his exes.  According to him , he liked a girl who had a boyfiend and had a sex with her. Also there was another girl who liked him and they had a relationship for a while because the girl wanted it even if he liked the other. But recently the girl finally left him. He claimed the season might have been talking too much bullshit to her. He always compared the girl with the other about many things and stupidly he told them to her... I feel sorry for him because he said he couldn't have kept it as his monologue. But i think he is stupid enough and too proud of himself. I want to say this again. No girls like being compared with any others. For me , even being compared with the most beautiful woman all over the world feels so disgusting!  Having said that , i found myself thinking of you in front of him. But i'm sure that there's a difference between women and men about how they compare their lov...

I know there are many words like "confused and confusing" , "bored and boring" and "tired and tiring" etc...and i think i can use them correctly. However , as for "complicated and complicating" , i'm confused. Both of the translated words in Japanese could be "fuku-zatsu-na" ( "na" is the general form of a suffix for an adjective ) .  The things which make people feel complicated are complicating , don't they ? But also complicated things can make people's mind or feeling complicated , and it means they're complicating to them , doesn't it ? Probably i'm thinking about it too much.  But if i start thinking about the song " complicated " of Momus , i'm getting so complicated... Over the room you are my puzzling creature Through the smoke of the room My dark and delicate creature The sensuous way that your hair Curves round the cusp of your ear ...

I am too obsessed with cleanliness and I know it's because of my parents, especially my father. After he worked for one or two years as a cock in a French restaurant in Osaka, he took over his father's business which was outdoor work. So he took off his clothes except his underpants every day after work before he went into the house. And I grew up with such a strange custom. I never took off my clothes outdoor though... Even when I am about to have a romantic moment with someone, I'm concerned about if the bed linen is clean or if he washed his hands before. And I also don't want him to be close to me if I didn't take a shower right before it. I don't want to smell or taste bad. I thought it was my obsession with cleanliness but a psychological test in a magazine let me know that it could be because of my rationality. According to it, it seems that I'm too proud to show my weak side. I kind of agree that. But I also noticed that I didn't trust hi...

'The Philosophy Of Momus' was one of my favorite albums in my youth. I remember that I got shocked by reading the translated lyrics in Japanese. By then I'd already known that his lyrics were difficult for me to introduce to my mother and friends, though. And these days I'm listening to it again. I guess I'm enjoying what he sings more this time. I generally love his voice, melody and rhythm. They calm my nerves. But also excite, confuse and sway me a lot. And something unbalanced ( maybe I should say it's balanced because they go well together ) really attracts me. It seems that he has everything that attracts me. Lately I sometimes have a delusion that I see him in my real life. He will take me around, show me around and teach me many difficult things just like his music. He will shock me, destroy me and comfort me just like his voice. And he will leave me at ease, just as the last tune 'Paranoid Acoustic Seduction Machine' does now.