なにしよっかなあ THIS BORES ME !!

                I met you partly by accident, partly by design. I couldn't see you unless you'd decided to meet me. So I appreciate that I can still touch you. Maybe not any more though.                 I don't know why you look at me. You seem to have already got what you wanted and needed in your life. Maybe just from caprice. It's meaningless worrying about it because I never know it. I decided to be myself. 数えるのをやめた 痛みはすぐに甘さになって 頭がしびれてどうしようもなく 同じ景色を見たくて、ボタンをおした 気づいてほしくてボタンを 陽だまりにいるみたい。 I stopped counting. Pain turns into sweetness soon and it makes me electrically numb. I pushed the button to see what you see. Just wanted to be noticed. Like being in a sunny place. Somewhere in Berlin   

        I've been thinking about how I will live. I almost found an answer. But I'm still seesawing. I think I have some problems of myself. I got divorced, I have no children, and I'm neither young nor married. These things don't mean that I'm awkward but at least I think so by myself. I left Kobe for Berlin in September 2014. When I told that I was planning to go abroad for a while to my roommate, he didn't seem to accept it in the beginning. But at that time I was desperate to run away from something, and we talked to each other. And at last he said, 'I think I should respect what you think. If I say, ''don't go'', it must be strange because it's your life'. About 6 months later, I talked with him again. I was still in chaos. I don't remember the details we talked about but he said, 'there's nobody I need to live. Nevertheless if I want someone to be with me, it would be ideal for me and the person'. When ...

            Finally I got the new album of Momus, 'Scobberlotchers'. I felt afraid of listening to his recent music because I didn't know how I would feel about it. In other words, I was afraid of being fascinated by him again. And it's also because I don't like 'typically Japanese' things.  I mean I don't like the people who are too proud of themselves. Because there're so many people talking shite about their 'art'. I'm sorry for wandering from the point. He's not Japanese. Figure 1. The new album of Momus, 'Scobberlotchers' (peach-coloured) and his second album, 'The Poison Boyfriend'               Yes, I was scared. But now I'm ready to face him.  The title of first track is 'Heian'. Yeah, I said I am ready for it. I just remember that I had listened to this song before on his Tumblr. And I noticed he posted almost all of the songs of the new album on his youtube(Tumblr). I like the way of prom...